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tA-Da
Not working again today... feeling bad for leaving the other relief teacher alone while i frolick from my bed to chair, to living room to kitchen to loo... and the cycle continues...

Don't know what's wrong also! Fever been going up and down. This morning, was feeling fresh and happy and so sure that i'll be back to work tmr...
8.15am- Temp at 35.8
10.00am-Temp at 37
10.44am- Temp at 37.6

I'm usually a cool person, so anything above 37.5 seems high. And ysty evening, it hit a high of 39.5 (given the nature of my job, i am extremely paranoid...) Not wanting to burn my brains, i downed 2 paracetamols, i got dressed, combed my oily hair, got my cash and got ready to visit the doctor for a jab. Brilliant sanity although i'm burning up ya? haha ... well parents went with me of coz..

But the weird thing is, by the time its my turn at the clinic, temperature dropped to 37.8 again. So didn't get a jab. Just had 2 days MC and other medicine.
Don't understand why is it that EVERY time i reach the doctor's my sickness will disappear. And i'll appear like some pathetic self-pitying 'patient' pretending to be sick.
Its either my sickness fears the doctor clinic more than an apple a day... or it revels in making me look like a fool hampering for MCs...
Doctor said if this persists, will have to take a blood test. Dengue?!
But i don't spot any rash and i swear there are no mosquito bites on me...
And i'm pretty sure, IF i really take a blood test. Its NOT gonna be dengue. Its again these stupid sick cells, or whatever they are trying to make me look stupid again.

I just told my colleague and appraisert that my target goal this year is not to take MCs... and im already 2 days down. What a joke.

Settling ...

Thanks meiren =)
Will not give up... not yet... haha

Can't say that life is a bed of roses in school, but its really great to have a relief teacher with me. And well... kids are still a mess, today kanna whacked, didn't manage to teach much (bleh)
But still... i don't dread school. Phew. But do feel a bit guilty at the end of the day when i wave goodbye to the kids and realise that i wasn't paying much attention to them for the whole day. Because they are so GOOD. Obedient kids get neglected. Sad huh.

Trying to go to school earlier to enjoy the peace and quiet of mornings... but no matter how hard i try, by the time i reached khatib, i have to squeeze my way out. Stupid horrid Singapore bloody transportation system.

Some stuff i'd need to reflect on and improve...

• i bloody forgot to tell bus driver that kid has left home early (sick)
• i didn't see any blue "clip" a parent was talking about. (very understanding one somemore.. felt bad for being blur)
• Still not able to end the school day in peace, no matter how much 'precaution' i take.
• Still a scatterbrain... TOO scatterbrainish...
• Still procrastinating too much-resulting in too much undone work...

Sometimes i wonder if its the personality... can never be the kind who remembers important things.

Met HX last Sat and we talked till 12plus.. without realising it. Even the last bus had gone... She was telling me that she watched a video for DISe module and she immediately thought of me! Jane Fonda. Haha. Did get her point but well... perhaps i am more optimistic than her. And glad that she seemed to be feeling happier that last year. 2008 hurray!

k lah, not much ranting to be done today. So tired... but still liking morning session and had new CCA this year- Lion Dance and Modern Dance. haha reckon i can't see S that often but i can always volunteer to help out with adventure club ya.

ok. good nite

watch Coffee Prince!

Cokey?

Meiren, i was about to ask you what you meant by cokey... but then i realised i was the one who declared it...
Can i eat my coke?
Because... I'm being tortured by my class!!! Boo Hoo...
I have 8 kiddies this year... 7 year-olds.
3 Downs- 1 ok, 1 playful, 1... (i'm so wanting to bite his head off)
1 ADHD (he's quite good actually)...
1 with gross motor problems... meaning, he topples easily. Meaning his mommy would feel like biting my head off if he falls down. Hooray...
1 Kabuki (who always whines about going home and gets violent and cries when she cannot go home...)
1 Angel (who is pining for her bf, who's in another class this year)
1 EPILEPSY. Last straw.
Initially, i was supposed to take the class alone when my partner goes on maternity leave. Crazy.
I told the school auntie that if i have no relief teacher coming today, i'll lock myself in class with all my kids. Not because i wanna get up close and personal with them. I'll juz slap diapers on all of them, ask them to help themselves to their own food and water, and lock myself in a cupboard.
haha!
i had 2 helpers for the past 3 days. And i still can't cope.
I'm already so crap at classroom management... i'm crap at classroom management... i repeat. im absolutely totally hopelessly crap at classroom management
Its always so hard to decide which course of action to take...
Do i want to be like my colleague... she's stern and fierce.. so her class is ANGELIC.
But... i don't want them to hold me in awe... i want them to enjoy school and class...
BUT while they are having the time of their lives... their teacher is contemplating taking her own life.

Strike a balance, you'd say. OK. Tell me how.
I realised that once you are nice to them... and you turn fierce on them, do they get scared? For 3 seconds maybe.
But after that they forget and start hating you for scolding them. haha

bloody hell.

OK.
I'm still gonna be positive about it.
I'm gonna read up on classroom management. And other strategies...
You 7 year-olds think you can drive me up the wall?
Dream on! I have huge metal cupboards. I'll lock myself in one of the cupboards.
Together with ALL THE TOYS. So you can spend your time playing with NOTHING. Na~nananana

WAHHHAH!

Luckily they are cute. Else i'd really have ran out of school, screaming my head off then get run over by an Isuzu truck.

This is coming from someone who wakes up by 5 am every morning.

And someone who fell asleep on train from YCK to JE for the past 2 days. And no one bothered to wake me up though its the terminal stop. BOTH TIMES.
I had to wake up myself and realised that everyone has alighted.
Idiot singaporeans.
If you see someone asleep at terminal stop (except marina bay), pls wake the person up, even though the person may wanna go round and round Singapore for sight-seeing (in her dreams, that is) CHECK la.
YOu know how frustrating it is to wake up at some stop and realise you've missed ur stop, and you're already so freaking tired you wanna drop dead there and there on the floor and you can't take cab back coz of the fare hike and you HAVE TO stop, cross over to the other side, and take the train AGAIN!
You wouldn't have fallen so soundly asleep in the first place if you're not really truly tired right?!
So pls... do someone a favour, don't be so shy CAN?!

ANYWAYZ
just wanna complain abit. you know.. abit. abit only la.

West Side Story-I Feel Pretty

The Original
Why do I like the prancing and over-the-top stuff? haha

I Feel Pretty

Watched Anger Management on Channel 5 that day...
Thought this is hilarious =p

Its 2008! (Blabber Version)

Hey,
Its already 2008
And I haven't reflected on 2007, nor did i make any resolutions for 2008 (except for not eating pineapple tarts + replying sms-es asap)
Well resolutions never worked ... so i shall stop devising stuff that will make me feel bad.


Good things:

1. Had a short 'fling' (haha!) with someone who made me happy (and no longer made me sad (= )
2. Finished NIE & got a $100 pay rise. (make it $80 after CPF. HA~HA~HA! Only enough to pay for guitar fees... )
3. Learnt a bit of piano & still learning guitar
4. Did 8km, 10km, 21km ( think i'll continue to do so even though running does result in a big ass...)
5. Realised that I'm in a group in school (WT.. hah)
6. Went Port Dickson, Cameron, Taipei & Siem Reap (i want more!)
7. 2007 is OVER!

As for the bad things, let's not mention them. Already have insufficient time to do the things i want... (for example i should be doing crunches now/ finishing my work/watch korean drama/read Watership Down) not gonna waste time on unpleasant stuff =P

I don't understand how some pple can feel bored staying at home/not working/not going out. I don't have enough timeeeee.... i want to feel bored

Guess the beginning of a new year gives perfectly good reason to start afresh. Think I've been especially disappointed with myself in work. May 2008 be a great year!

In Hamlet, there was this quote which says that one must be "cruel in order to be kind". So in Wanling's Little Purple Book, there's a quote that says " I must be disciplined in order to be free"... Meaning, if i'm hardworking and finish my lesson plan by friday nite, i'll have more time over the weekends! in other words... i MUST procrastinate less ( i didn't say that i cannot procrastinate. that cannot happen haha! )

BTW, i am feeling surprisingly cheery on 01.01. 2008.

Maybe its because I met up with Meiren, Fav and Hon/ then went Xiaoyi's place for steamboat and fondue on the last day of 2007. (high from great company, miso soup, chocolate and alcohol!)

And perhaps its because i went to the Indian temple with my parents at 6plus in the morning on New Year's Day. Haha! ( this starting off the year with sthing i want to do- spend more time with parents...)

Was telling HX that I have alot of things to look forward to this year...

The Wish List:

1. Travel! ( To HK? To China? To Vietnam? To Africa?)
2. Diving!
3. Climb a mountain! (the 10 peaks project? Mt Kinabalu?)
4. Run 42.195km?
5. Learn dancing?!
6. Learn Pop Piano?!
7. Not hesitate to pursue what i wanna do!

The To-Do List:

1. Be hardworking
2. Be responsible
3. Be a better daughter
4. Be a better friend
5. Be healthy
6. Not be too fat. (shall be elaborated if i am blogging the 2008 Ah-Q version haha!)

Its probaby a bit cheesy to say this... but i was actually feeling sparkly this morning... as there were thousands of tiny efferverscent bubbles in me. (think coke)

Which Winnie-the-Pooh and Friends Character are you?

You are Tigger! You want to jump around on your tail and bounce your way through the year! Although you are not perfect, you are determined to keep your spirits up up and away! Bounce on! (taken from Wanling's Little Purple Book)

Really nonsensical today... but who cares?!

Hope that happy thoughts continue to grace my gut (its definitely growing. physically) this year. So can we really govern most of our emotions? That we ourselves decide whether we wanna be jolly or down in the dumps?

Then i wanna be happy!

Ok... i'm getting bored with my own messy musings. Bye.

P/S: on the train this morning at 640am (can u believe it.. i took 30mins to reach Bukit Batok Station)... i was standing opposite this guy who looked 90% like a Secondary School classmate. Even his actions and demeanor resemble my friend. So much so that I couldn't help feeling paranoid- that he is actually really that friend, but i don't recognise him and he must be thinking how rude i was to not even say hi. Anyway, i guess he did notice that i would glance his way quite often (from bukit batok to yishun- i can't help it) So to prevent myself from fixating my glance on him, i'll look somewhere else. And it caused other pple to think that I am looking at them.

ACTUALLY, the point of all the rubbish above is... I've decided to try this when I'm bored on the MRT:
"MISSION-HOW UNCOMFORtABLE I CAN MAKe SOMEONE ON The PUBLIC TRANSPORT "
Haha... how uninspired can one get.