Forget, and Forget about forgiving

Have removed the horror stories.
People with better sense have advised that cyberspace is a dangerous zone.
You never know who will stumble upon the page and use it against you.
So well...

Heart still heavy
But regulation works are being done.

Have decided to try to forget
But no mention of forgiving
The only reason being-
If there is talk of forgiveness... one must have cared enough to muster energy to be furious.

Bearing grudges exhausts too much time and effort.

And actually, the best way to remain impenetrable to the claws of monsters, is probably to take the high road.
Don't stoop to their level, they can't touch you

Even if one eventually falls into the claws of them.
This could be on the epitaph : " I have have left the battleground in honor."

Regulate. Regulate?

Again.
I am going to rant about the exciting battlefield my school has turned into.
We've all grown so weary, so disappointed and so beaten that we do not want to talk about the issues anymore... many a times, we could only stare blankly at each other, dumbfounded by the ridiculity of it all. Still NEW issues, new insults, new attacks emerge every day.

The mrt trip from Khatib and Chinese Garden is actually long enough for me to finish thinking and shake my head, then fullstop. But I am going to record it. Because I have somehow morphed into the monsters like them.
I must ensure that I remember why I was so frustrated with these vicious opportunists and that 10 years down the road, I could still feel justified for feeling the way I do now. SO that if I am pushed to the limit and forced to snap, I could retort confidently.

These monsters could talk birds down the trees, break their necks and laugh at their mangled states for weeks.
Then they would tell the whole world about their victory and celebrate, not because they have done anything meaningful. They are delighted because they got their way.
Ashamed?
Never.

The birds deserve to die, they say.
Can you condemn their actions?
No way.
Coz the reluctant mafia boss gave the go-ahead.

Psycho

The powers which you gave away,
Lured the monsters out to play
You'll definitely see one day,
The price that you have to pay.
But still i wonder...
Will you live to see that day?

I forgot...

In the midst of confusion, indecisiveness and discontentment...
I forgot.
Forgot that in 2-3 weeks time, _ _ _ will be no more.
Moving to new, boring concrete multi-storey building.
Its like moving out of the old KR... with our pond and amphitheatre...
Our kitchenette at the top floor... and the toilet that goes "beep" when someone walks in
The peep hole to make sure that its no peeping tom who entered the Ladies.
How I miss all those...

And once again... moving out... to be forced to move into a place deemed as more modern...
Without waterplay tub for the kids no decent field to run on, no playground with sand...
Tragic...
I forgot to treasure the old place i so loved... The see-saw which i used to take one of my first photos with Shaun. (already gone...)
The mango tree, the starfruit tree, the chiku tree, the banana tree (chopped off cos of stupid aedes mosquitoes), the rambutan tree... we used to climb up onto the ladder, and armed with our poles to hook those fruits. Its greatly satisfying to see the fruit go THUD onto the ground manifested with roots of trees.
The large field with the rotten log and wobbly bench... where we used to play frisbee and volleyball...
The open-concept canteen... the "staff room" (which is actually just a conference room) ...
The fat nasty black lizards... the insects which randomly fall from the ceiling... the glue-sniffing (and EATING) rats... the occasional tree snake...

How could i have forgotten...
How could i lament having to stay back every day and not realise that soon i will not have the chance to do so anymore...
How could i allow certain human beings to diminish my love for YGS...
The people did the evils... but the place did not...
My eyes and heart have been blinded this year... almost as if a wall has come between me and the YGS i used to know...

Interestingly enough... things in school have been breaking down, giving way... crumbling...
Some said that the place will disintegrate because it knows that the people are leaving
Some concluded that "THEY", our friendly brothers from down-under are sad that we are leaving... after all, its years and years of "Feeling" uh...

Am currently helping out with the school relocation flyer... that is telling our new friendly neighbours at Sengkang area that we are "moving in"
Today, the VP just said she thought its a better idea to say that "WE ARE OPENING!" (are we some supermarket or GAP store?) oh well...
What bothered me was... the _ _ _ seems to be wiped out completely...

Must remember not to complain anymore...
I'll always miss you...