The day to remember, cherish and hold.

Still unsure how it happened.
But it did.
Still unsure how it will turn out.
But i'll find out.
Still unsure if it will last.
But i'll try hard.
Still sure am scared.
But i'll try hard.

To be happy

3 questions to ask yourself:
1. What is the most important time?
2. Who is the most important person?
3. What is the most important thing?

Answers:
1. Now.
2. The person you are with then and there.
3. To love. (the person/persons you are with then and there)

Apparently, we'll always be happy and contented if we could live by these.

Twists of fate...

Really don't understand how fate works.
Really don't know how 'fate' eludes certain people while others just have it fall on the lap so unexpectedly.
To the unsuspecting one... fate charges and rages on....
To the thinking being... it bobs away...

What the heck is the world coming to...
Why does fate make fun of people so...?

Jittery jitters

Its the second day of January.Weather is still fine.
Had this silly choya-ing session over msn with my fellow zhuz... almost forgot how silly laughter and simple games can be so much fun

Haven't had this kind of feeling in a long time... bittersweet, stomach-scratching. icy-cold sensations...

Tomorrow is the very first day of school...
Getting these jitters again... WIll my teeny boppers torture me tmr? Boo hoo...
Shivered when i was a student... SHivering again as a teacher... Will this never end...
school blues...

Year 2007

2006 had really been a rotten year. Be it work, money, relationships...
And it has finally come to an end!
Survived Christmas and New Year. Even managed to have a great time. =)
In retrospect... while 2006 was darn crappy... I've learnt many lessons along the way...
Learnt that I have allowed myself to be so absorbed in a relationship that I've neglected my friends, family, kids and colleagues...
Learnt that little things i do can make others happy... and that i haven't been doing...
Learnt that i have been too self-centred for very long...
Learnt that freedoom is a great thing
Learnt that I should never allow myself to be dependent on anyone again...

Hope that I will never repeat those mistakes again...
And hope that i can remember to spread my love and care around...

Actually... i realised that it has been hard, coz I haven't felt sad in ages. Guess for that, I have him to thank. Despite everything, those 2 years plus with him have been wonderful. To be fair... he has treated me so well... and I'm not sure i can find someone who loves me for exactly who i am again, whether fat or square, stupid or whiny... It was only that one fatal mistake...
If i hadn't been happy for the past years, i wouldn't be reduced to shatters ya hehe
No, I haven't completely forgiven nor forgotten... but hopefully it shows that i'm ready to move on.

It was raining so hard this very day in 2006... pathetic fallacy ? We used to say in literature...
It was bitter and painful this very day in 2006. Ominous... or foreshadowing of a bad year...? We used to say in literature...
The weather is lovely this very day in 2007.
It has been beautiful and hopeful this very day in 2007.

Was surprised by a sudden turn in events... Still not sure whether things will work out... but at least i can believe that there is still a glimmer of hope in this world...

Finally, would like to thank all the friends who stayed by my side...wouldn't have made it past this year if not for the people around me...

I guess, after having survived the rotten stuff in that rotten year, I can finally smile and declare that they are blessings in disguise.

I hope ...