July. Here it comes

My computer is down. Present Tense. Think the devil is the video card. I'm just grateful that its not the LCD monitor which wil cost me much more $$$ to replace.

First week of school is over. Reasonable. But appallingly and oddly tiring. Couldn't seem to wake up after the first day of school...Kids are not too bad. Just that one did not come to school for the whole week. According to his Mom, he is not able to sit properly on the chair for long and needs to lie down. According to the PT, for his condition,he is already living beyond his years. Although its more tedious when he comes, i really hope to see him next week... hope that he can survive this year... more years.. Miss his cheerfulness. He is the only one in class who never throws tantrums, never bullies teachers or classmates... just a sweet, wide-eyed boy.. or rather teenager...

Read JM and QY and Momo's blog, just to catch up. Can't rem P and XJ's blog address cos its not in my list of favourites here... It bugs me that I don't seem to be around when all those despairing things are happeneing in their lives...
And its always weird to ask them about how they felt or whether they are fine after the matter(s) is/are over... Guess when the incident or bout of unhappiness is over, its over. Fullstop. Perhaps I'm socially-awkward. Even at this ripe old age. Really dunno how to reach out to people... though my good friends would probably forgive me for my tactlessness or carelessness. Still lack courage to try. Lack courage to fail.
How i wish.
Let my greatest wish be for the well-being of my family and friends.

Anyway, just finished a book- Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. VERY intriguing and exhilarating. What an intelligent and knowlegable author. The tension between Science and religion is so intense, yet he is absolved from taking sides. What's more, the "religous speech" made by one of the priest in the book is more compelling than any other church services i've attended. Not that I'm now a believer of God. I just felt slightly ashamed for not having faith in any heavenly bodies after that speech.. whatever HE/SHE might be.

Recently. I realised that one of my tuition kid is able to express certain words better than myself. I'm fumbling. Losing it. Losing my touch. If there was any to begin with.
Aiyoh uh, time to UPGLADE liao lah.