Uncanny Part Deux

Its uncanny.

Or maybe its really the mind machine working its magic.

Talked to zhuz over MSN just now. And she was telling me that she is currently reading this book- the male protagonist likes to watch 'Days of Our Lives' . Coincidentally, I juz mentioned it out of the blue in one of my entries.

(btw, zhuz, more about this soap opera- there are lotsa soapliloquys.. i mean soliloquys. They are always talking to 'themselves'. Its lotsa talking talking...Hardly any action.)

More uncanny stuff. Was going on and on about Paulo Coelho recently. zhuz had also intended to read 'The Alchemist'. AND. After I mentioned him, he appeared in Straits Times Life! ANywayz, they did an interview on him and he commented that books should be passed around and not lay idle in libraries (sthing to that effect) Hence, he'll leave books that he has finished reading around, like garden benches, cafes etc... Nice idea isn't it? When i told D, he (will be undergoing name change soon) said that there was such a movement in Singapore also... is that right? Pple leaving books around... something like pass-it-on.

Some more uncanny- 2 blogs I've been reading mentioned Christmas (one on July 16th, the other on July 17th) They don't cross paths, NOPE. So its... uncanny when i read about the same thing within a same period of time...

ANywayz. I'm not really writing or thinking properly. Juz wanna quickly finish the post I've started... yesterday. (Today is Thursday)
Actually had lotsa thoughts when i went to jog on Tue night... but was too tired to sort and type them out...

Btw... one of the favourite 'uncanny' stuff or coincidence or telepathy (or whatever you wanna call it) happens right at home. I'd be having cravings for some food and come home to find that my mom has bought them on that very day. Think my brain waves sent some messages to her or sthing? Haha! No complaints =)
Talking about that, was listening to 933FM that day, and DJs were saying that some research in China concluded that WILL POWER can really make things move physically (ESP?) So i better curb my mean thoughts huh... in case my will power really murder the kid.

Having started ranting... can't stop!

Point Form:

1. I suspect I have blood sugar problems after reading 'MIND YOUR BODY'
2. I have been to school brighter and earlier these days (one resolution fulfilled! for this week at least...)
3. I have not been doing work at home (yay!)
4. I had a great session at gym today ( Treadmill and yoga. Yoga's great. If i am mistaken about being a cat in my last life. I could have been a piece of rubber? OK. I just have loose ligaments. Digression: Anyone remember the rubber man from one of Enid Blyton's book?! Digression 2: I can't believe that hardly any kids these days read Enid Blyton! Missing out on so much... Digression 3: At least my cousind does =D)
5. But I'm still damn fat. (stepped on weighing machine. Shiokness experienced at gym reduced)
6. Post Cranberry Almond Crunch is delicious! (been eating Post Cereals for years. Only tried this flavour recently. Darn... all those lost times and lost discounts from NTUC)

Much faster. More updates when I'm ready.

Good night.

Gemini with Autism

I think I'm a true blue (purple) Gemini...
Suddenly wondered that day if i feel abit unmotivated at work because I am alone.
There is only one preschool class in the afternoon session. And there's only me =/
Its really the first time in 2 years I don't work with a partner. Need someone to keep egging me on, to talk to, to discuss stuff with, to keep tabs on me (haha!) and to have ideas bounce off each other...

Where's my twin?

Its kinda a devastating "realisation"... coz i always thought that i'm perfectly fine alone. And in fact i love being alone. And alone doesn't imply 'lonely'. Been to PS very often these days. Only saw that there are pictures on the floor (route from mrt to PS) coz i walked alone. Doubt i'll notice if i'm yakking with someone beside me.
Will I become dull and muted if i end up being alone and a spinster one day?
What if its my 'personal legend' (refer to The ALchemist) to be a twin? NOOOoooo...
Wait, my personal legend is to be a tai-tai... yay

After establishing that i am indeed a Gemini, another realisation made me understand why this Gemini is so crap at communication. Geminis are supposed to be the chatty kind who can always come up with good conversations. Not me. I'm a social leper. So i can't be a Gemini. But i AM definitely part of a twin! So I'm a Gemini. YadddaYaddaaaaa...
Simple. Coz i have ASD lah.
And its getting more serious with age...

Was seriously upset when things I've been expecting to happen didn't happen.
So ... don't fly me aeroplane please.
Coz i'm autistic.


This siao, autistic Gemini...

Bloodthirsty

I think I have never felt such a strong urge to murder someone before.

Know that I was a spitefire with a nasty temper when I was in PrimarySchool.
Thought I'm already better.

But now guess I gotta sing this:
"It was so long ago, but its all coming back to me..."

Somebody, save the boy.

五月天 - 孫悟空

Mayday. Again. For my own viewing pleasure. Haha
Finally found one with ok quality, but words so tiny.
Enjoy

五月天 忘詞MV 清晰版

Another one I like

垃圾車

Funny Song

Floodgates

Nope, not tears.
Saliva.
When i stopped. I can't start.
Once i start, i can't seem to stop.
Its all about inertia and momentum right? haha

Friday

Sis and I baked some muffins- Yoghurt and Lemon flavoured. I thought they tasted alright. Just need to be sweeter. But sis found them horrid. Anyway, she threw them out because she reckoned no one would wanna eat them haha.

Saturday

Supposed to watch Harry Potter at 10pm. When we reached the theatre, saw 4 of our friends standing there, telling us that there were no seats left. At first, we thought they were joking, that they were waiting for the rest. How could there be no seats? They went in and saw pple already on our seats and they were holding the tix indicating the same seat numbers.
Apparently, there were duplication of tix during booking.
Wasn't really involved in the whole saga, but thought the management didn't handle the situation very well. And they really need to check the up the dictionary on the word: 'compensation'.

Firstly, ushers went in to call the pple on the seats to come out. They thought we should have the seats because we have already booked the tix a few days ago whilst those pple bought on that day itself. DUH? Do they think we want to evict them? They were already comfortably on their seats and the show has already started... It doesn't make donkey sense to make those pple suffer for the computer system's mistake. They were also victims...
The management kept on saying that they understand and they will compensate us.
Compensation:
"We'll sign these ticket stubs, and you can return any day, any time to watch the movie again"
WHAT?! You're just giving us back what we've paid for in the first place and you have the cheek to call it compensation? Hello?!
What about the dampened spirits? What about E (who would usually be late) was on time for once because she took cab? What about the time that 8 of us wasted in travelling there? And we have to go back again to watch....?!

They then offered to let us watch Harry Potter at later time slots. Initially said there were still seats for 1.15am show. TOO LATE for us. They suggested 12.45am, though only front row seats are left. Erm... 12.45am is ALOT earlier than 1.15am i suppose.
Basically, they are crap at pacifying pple.

Anyway, after haggling from E, who was very fierce (steady man... haha) we finally got something that resembled compensation:
1. Refund for our tickets
2. 2 movie vouchers per person.

Makes more sense, but still feels weird. Coz we were supposed to be watching movie! Luckily my autism is not that severe, else i'll be throwing a fit.

So instead of watching movie, we went KTV. haha!
The package was till 4 am... *snore* And its expensive ... but at least there's the refund from our movie tix to 'subsidise' us haha

And at 12am, they played this game: Zhong Ji Mi Ma (the taiwanese variety gameshow where you'll be kicked out if you guessed that number) Maximum 2 representatives from the various rooms. There were about 10 participants in total.
And D won haha! (so he concluded that he should never buy 4D or Toto. Coz he'll never get the number right haha!) The grand prize for winning- one free jug of drink...
Reached home at 4 plus and slept at 5 plus... zzZzz

To complete my ktv-intensive weekend, went K-lunch with hui & xian. Was fun and we get to listen to nice songs =)
Unfortunately, really too tired to hang out after that... just went home to catch a few winks.

Okie.
That's my weekend.

Drool Alert!

Ever held on to some pole on the public bus and it feels sticky? Wet? (Or am I the only unfortunate one?)

Was on 334 the other day and saw this Malay kid licking the pole. (He's not even a baby, already 5 years old? According to Freud, he's in oral fixation stage? Isn't he abit too old for that?!)

The bus was very uncomfortable and crowded. I was pissed. That tasting incident didn't help. I just felt like going: "EEEE, so dirty."
A little malay girl (whom i thought was Indian because of her dressing) went on to assume the position and held on to that pole. Miraculously, she missed the spot he licked on. I felt like saying " Don't hold that part, one dirty little boy licked on it just now"
Somehow, she just didn't touch the sticky area.

Later, I realised that she's the sister of that very Malay boy. Maybe she knows about her bro's perchant for public poles: The ever delicious Metal-flavoured lolly.

ANYWAYz

YUCK.

My Past Life

Haven't updated in some time- snagged a draft written some time ago. haha!
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I told fav I must have been a cat in my past life.

She said she feels the same. haha

Maybe we were all cats *meow*

Anyway, reason why I say that.

My primary school chinese teacher is this interesting chap with lotsa stories to tell us. He's the Jack Neo of Jurong loh. (Emerged with this phrase, coz just heard from a friend that his teacher used to tell him that Commonwealth Sec School is the RI of Jurong haha!)

Oh, oh... i feel a need to digress.

Went to D's friends convo on 4th July. One of his buddy is currently teaching Commonwealth Sec before he goes NIE. Which is now at the old RV site at Teban. (Hey! And i think RV moved to Commonwealth area b4...?!)

Another of D's buddy was the one who studied at the RI of Jurong.

Summarising our Commonwealth ties:
1. BL teaching at Commonwealth Sec
2. Dan used to study at Commonwealth Sec
3. I stay next to old Commonwealth Sec (Sis used to study there) & currently Commonwealth Sec is located at old RV site (I used to study at RV)
4. D= Out of point.

Anywayz, coz we had dinner quite late, @ 11.30, we had to take cab home. Jokingly told cab uncle: (We were juz talking amongst ourselves actually, din think uncle knew what we were talking about. haha)
"Uncle, first drop this guy who is teaching at Commonwealth Sec. Next, drop this lady who stays at the block next to the old Commonwealth Sec. Lastly, drop this guy who really used to study at Commonwealth Sec."
Well. Private joke.

Ok. Back to Mr Yap. He had this theory: Basically when translated from Chinese, it implied that when 1 person says it, its crap. When 2 persons say so, its of some credibility. When 3 persons mention it, its the TRUTH.


3 persons who have called me a meow:

Shall give JM the honor of being the first la. He said I'm like a cat. Always leaning here and there. Like very lazy. Thanks uh. I appreciate it. *snarl*

Next, XL, the girl who sat next to me in sec4. Her nickname for me is 'GarGar' (not some lovey-dovey thingy like darling= DarDar) Its simply short for Garfield.
Not too far from the truth ya?! Sleepy, droopy eyes and immense interest in FOOD.

The most recent- S, my colleague. One day, she juz suddenly commented " You remind me of a cat"
Now she calls me Kitty Cat.

So over a period of 10 years, I've been linked to cats.

Of course, its not just based on these people's comments. I used to hate when pple commented that i'm like a cat. Upon reflection... i AM indeed quite cattish. Nua qualities firmly in place. I'm not sure about having 9 lives though...

I used to hate the black cat that lurks around my void deck and flashed its green eyes at me every morning. And the one cat i used to hate the most is the Persian cat. Thought its the worst breed ever- high and mighty, sleeps on armchairs and lush carpets, have luxurious food etc. You get the idea. Ironically, NOW, if i have to be a cat, I so want to be a Persian Cat- Its the tai-tai of Cats society.

Dream on, alley cat.

Wo shi mao, meow meow meow...

Days of Our Lives

The only other person I know who watched 'Days of Our Lives' was my gf from Hwachong. And we are not proud of it. Could still remember that we were strolling around the amphitheatre when i sheepishly admitted that instead of studying for A'Levels, i was watching 'Days of our Lives'. And to surprisingly.... she revealed that she watched that as well. She was equally sheepish. haha!

'Like sand through the hourglass, so are the days of our lives"

Anyway... just thought of some of the days that have passed.

Friday had been good. Didn't pluck rambutans afterall. Coz was discussing Racial Harmony with D. (colleague) But we did have dinner after school. 5 of us- Phuah, M, D, Muah and myself. Although they are 8,9,10,12 years older than me, still had a good time. Nice people to hang out with. Coincidentally, was still talking to hui about hanging out that day. haha

And went to JE with sis after gym ysty. Gosh. We spent a few hours there. Hey, but we did go to the library.

Uh. TOo lazy to write anymore.

Don't Usually Check

Sorry folks, I don't usually check if I have comments... so I just noticed Meiren's offer to lend me the book. And JUST saw Zhuz site for FOC book =)

Thanks Zhuz!

Had thought of putting up a tagboard. But my blog is this very rural spot lah... like building a condo in a sparsely-populated village. Don't bother =p
Don't malu myself also.
haha!

My Extraordinary Ah-Q Spirit

I realised that my Title is often unrelated to what I babble for the content.
Guess its just this 'tagline' that stands out from my random thoughts.

Before i forget: YES Meiren, I want The Alchemist please! Thank you! (Didn't find a single Paul Coelho book at Woodlands Branch. There were like 8 copies of his books at Jurong... DUh.)

Juz read my sis' blog and i regret to say... Resolutions are meant to be broken. Erm. Or at least for the very first week. Things will get better next week! At least I say so.
But one sliver lining... I've finally finally registered for piano lessons =P
I realise that I don't do anything unless on impulse. I wandered into the school, asked lotsa questions. Walked out and went back in on the same day. (Despite knowing that there is also a Yamaha at Sbwang, and that Civic centre should also have music school...)
And when I went back home, Mom told me that my sis' private teacher years ago is still teaching (she taught me almost 18 yrs ago too hah) ... and her rate is cheaper.
ANYWAYZ, i have signed up and I'm starting lessons soon. No regrets. Fullstop.

Long long looooong time ago, when i was talking to Mo on the phone, and I was telling her how I think in an Ah-Q manner. Coincidentally, I called myself a 'optimistic pessimist' haha.
I happen to have a lot of Ah-Q thoughts today.

1. I get angry at my kids (thus dooming my resolutions) because I notice enough what they are doing to get irritated
2. I flare up at my kids because I care enough to want them to do the right thing
3. I get irritated on public transport because my mind is clear enough to see people and 'dramas' around me
4. I didn't do enough exercise this week because i need to lose the flesh first. (meaning eat less)
5. I'm ugly so that its easier look better
6. I'm still fat because it takes time to slim down.
7. I'm still procrastinating because it takes time to change
8. A leopard never changes its spots. But its ok, I'm not a leopard. I'm just the neighbourhood alley cat (more about that in other posts... if i remember haha)
9. Short. (No redeeming thought available =/ Shall talk about that obession later, prob in another post...if i remember...hahaha)

Just some examples ... Basically, I suddenly realised that my mind is bustling with observations on the MRT... something that has not happened for quite a while because the mind was busy being bogged down by other issues Hence, my personal Ah-Q conclusion:

Although the sights/observations may not always be pretty... thoughts, no matter how much they irritate you, indicate that the heart is in the right frame of mind. (Meaning that if you are in the dumps, you won't give a shit about what is happening around you. haha)

Anyway, let's talk about some happy stuff

Things to look forward to:

• Rambutan-plucking after school with Muah and Phuah
• Dinner @ AMK after plucking
• 2 hrs of Gym classes on Sat? Please please please?
• Start of piano lessons
• Convo with R and A? (implying no school on wed?)
• Making pass the Half-year mark?
• KTV
• Making progress with resolutions? (Pls lah...)

By the way, 2 persons I noticed on the train:
1. Aged: 50plus man who is bald. He was scratching his head. And there are some sores, some scabs. Scratch Scratch, flick, flick flick.

2. Aged: ~3 year-old boy. Sitting on Mom's lap looking bored. Moved his teeny index finger towards the nose. He looked like he wanted to dig his nose. Funny thing is, he missed. Took a few tries to poke his finger into his nostril. haha! (I assure you there is no boogey)

2 terrific words I've been using in my PPT and infecting my ASD boy with:

THE END

Way Back Into Love (full version)

Nice Song

Books

Btw, have also finished almost 3 other books over the week...

One is Stealing Adda, which is just alright. Cheesy romance. Fullstop.

Done with Paul Coelho. (The Devil and Miss Prym) It features quite a lot on the struggles between the devil and light within self. Ultimately, the message is probably that good and evil will both exist, but essentially, one's choice determines the final verdict. Think I'm gonna actively search for Veronika Decides to Die and also The Alchemist. Slightly more intelligent stuff than what I usually read, yet at the same time won't destroy too much brain cells.

Still reading The Petty Details of So-and-So's Life by Camilia Gibb. Quite painful to read. Coz the characters in the book aren't exactly leading beautiful lives. Not sure whether its gonna have a happily-ever-after ending... but probably gonna read till the end since i'm almost done with it...

Mid-Year Resolutions

People always say that new year resolutions always fail to work out. Hence, shouldn't have any. But they forget to mention that mid-year resolutions should be made. Mid-year resolutions are the best and always have the best results. Or at least i say so.

School:

1. Finish lesson plan by Sundays
2. Do at least 1/2 of resources required by weekend
3. Reach School by 11am every day
4. Finish required admin work 1 day before due date
5. Refrain from losing temper with babies
6. Read an article about special needs once a week

Personal:

1. Lose 4kg by the end of the year (bloody hell... so difficult. Sigh)
2. Jog at least twice a week (refer to 1)
3. Go to gym at least once a week (refer to 1)
4. No carbo/sweets after 8.30pm (refer to 1)
5. Avoid denial. Hop scale once every 2 days (refer to 1)
6. Learn Piano (unrelated to 1)
7. Curb spending on self
8. Save up to 25% of income. TOUGH. Make it 20%... (refer to 6,7)
9. Be more attentive to family and friends
10. Reflect. Every week.
11. Live life meaningfully.

Okie... I think I'm aiming too high... If i do exercise 3 times a week and learn piano. 4 out of 7 days are taken up. So will I have time to finish stuff at school and also be more attentive towards important people. Hmm...

But mid-year resolutions are bound to see results. So no harm aiming high right?

hur hur hur

Forgot about another resolution.

Be more environmentally friendly:

• Use less toilet paper, tissue paper, plastic bags
• Use less water (for clothes for shower for beverage)
• Switch off lights, laptop and TV before i sleep (guilty =/)
• Set timer for air-con, hi-fi.

Bubblegirl

Watched Bubbleboy around this time last year at Bintan with hui and fav.

Thought of it, coz i realised that I am quite a bubblegirl.
Roundness aside... i cease to see a larger world.

Self-centred bubblegirl.