Mr JM thought that I din wanna let P know that i have a blog.
*GASP*
THAT is ridiculous.
Fact is started the blog ages ago, and i never updated it.
Makes sense no one reads it.
I'm not selective.
I'm probably ... shy. Socially awkward. Yes.
Yeah. It sucks to admit it.
But... after all these years, confidence and self-esteem not exactly my forte.
Like today. I made brownies and brought them to school... wanted to show my appreciation to all those who have helped me since I've started out.. wanted to express my gratitude.. the school is really a friendly, warm place...
Unfortunately. I couldn't get the words out. I couldn't even bring myself to tell them that I've made brownies, pls help themselves.
I'm afraid that they'll think i keep publicising my own brownies.. i'm afraid the brownies aren't that nice afterall.. doubts, worries...etc etc etc etc etc...
The school has a common network. Teachers are free to share resources.
I never did. My resources, not worth sharing.
Ever since i stopped volunteering at yck on saturdays... i didn't offer help too.
Not unless i was asked.
My help. Not worth much surely.
Started to blog more. Still afraid.
What is there to read?
I believe I can look like crap but still go out to mar the cityscape.
But can I live life believe that every little effort I make is worth something ,no matter how minute?
I can't.
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*excited*
Same here!
Still remember the last time I went back? I promised to cook you all dinner... don't think I forgot! Just that I'm not really such a good cook and the thought of cooking for so many people just frightened me off.
Well, there are a lot of was to show my appreciation to my friends, but somehow I don't think I am good at doing any of those! So I shall just continue to be the jm who make stupid jokes that you don't know whether to laugh at or get mad at.
ya loh! ^5
most of the time all the good intentions just go haywire... all cos dunno how to execute them properly.. that's why you always do drawings and make stuff for us right? heh
i still have your BEANS...
u have too low self-confidence! pls u r from rv leh...the notes u have surely will help them a lot...unless u dowanna share ur gd things...haha
there is sthg good in everything...even if its not gd enough, it is still gd to receive some feedback and make changes to improve...
come out of ur shell...
XJ
huh...
studying at Rv doesn't mean i can make good resources!
i believe there is sthing good in everything...
but for myself, i still have lotsa doubts...
but thanks!
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