I think I'm a true blue (purple) Gemini...
Suddenly wondered that day if i feel abit unmotivated at work because I am alone.
There is only one preschool class in the afternoon session. And there's only me =/
Its really the first time in 2 years I don't work with a partner. Need someone to keep egging me on, to talk to, to discuss stuff with, to keep tabs on me (haha!) and to have ideas bounce off each other...
Where's my twin?
Its kinda a devastating "realisation"... coz i always thought that i'm perfectly fine alone. And in fact i love being alone. And alone doesn't imply 'lonely'. Been to PS very often these days. Only saw that there are pictures on the floor (route from mrt to PS) coz i walked alone. Doubt i'll notice if i'm yakking with someone beside me.
Will I become dull and muted if i end up being alone and a spinster one day?
What if its my 'personal legend' (refer to The ALchemist) to be a twin? NOOOoooo...
Wait, my personal legend is to be a tai-tai... yay
After establishing that i am indeed a Gemini, another realisation made me understand why this Gemini is so crap at communication. Geminis are supposed to be the chatty kind who can always come up with good conversations. Not me. I'm a social leper. So i can't be a Gemini. But i AM definitely part of a twin! So I'm a Gemini. YadddaYaddaaaaa...
Simple. Coz i have ASD lah.
And its getting more serious with age...
Was seriously upset when things I've been expecting to happen didn't happen.
So ... don't fly me aeroplane please.
Coz i'm autistic.
This siao, autistic Gemini...
Sunday, July 22, 2007
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dear skygreen, i have discovered your blog through my own wonder of what I truly am. i feel like i understand what you're going through. i am too a Gemini. and i too am also mildly autistic. you have gave me reassurance because now i know that I am not the only one. and you should know you aren't alone either.
i suck at communicating too. i feel like im at my best when i feel confident in what i have to say. so most times, what you say is very genuine. good or bad, its still the truth. i feel like i know what to say, but my mouth isnt getting any of it. i try every damn day to make the best of what i have, but my brain gets the best of me sometimes.
its been about 5 years since youve posted this blog. not sure if youre gonna read this. but if you do, i wanna say thank you. truth is, we are our own enemies. make the best of it no matter how challenging it seems, and find humor in everything.
thank you again, your friend,
W.A.S
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